Possibilities - An Original Song
Updated: Dec 6, 2020
Feel like I'm flying with you, Crying with you, Dreaming with you, Scheming with you...Don't know why, but it feels like we found something real.
I woke up one morning and decided that it was time to share my voice with the world. I have always written music and poetry, but I think only a handful of people ever knew that. Truth is music is my first love. You may forget your love for a little while, but you never really get over it. I was just in a life situation where I felt like I had to be someone different, and it was easy to think I got over my desire to sing. I actually used to say that part of my life is over, but I felt dead inside. Maybe that sounds a little dramatic, but it's true. I felt like my entire existence was just to pay my bills. I didn't have real love or support from my partner at the time, and I tried to drown out all the noise by working non-stop and overeating.
I would have never been able to write this kind of song in that relationship. Truth is you can't shine your light, when your partner is only interested in keeping you in the dark no matter how strong of a person you may be. Invest your time and energy wisely. I really didn't have a voice in that relationship, and I was always being controlled. I couldn't have a journal to write my poetry or thoughts without fear of it being read. Take away a pen from an entrepreneur and they will find a new one. Take away a pen from a writer and they feel like they can't breathe.
Do you know why I was so scared of shining? I don't think everything needs to be said, but if you've never been with a partner that tries to break you down everyday, then you simply can't understand. I believe in self-sufficiency and accountability, so I used to blame myself for being in that awful situation. Truth is I have a lot of credentials to my name. I work hard and I am overall a decent person. Sometimes bad men happen to good women. Fast forward.
One day I looked at my life and made a decision to leave that relationship. I truly believe I made the right decision for myself and my son. I wrote this song about a year after that relationship ended. I was in a new relationship with myself. I work on that every single day. This song, however is about the possibilities of finding love again. Not just love, but a real love that lifts us both up. I have a great friend that I kind of used as an inspiration for this song because we are always talking about the possibilities in life, but we are not romantically involved. I don't actually even know if he has heard this song. I think if he heard it, he would probably like it. Some people will immediately try to figure this one out, but don't. I have a lot of people that inspire me.
I am really proud of this song. It is the first song that I wrote that I have shared with anyone outside of my immediate family or circle of friends. I worked with Phil Green of Green Team Media for this song. I think every writer knows that inspiration comes in many forms, and they are not always romantic. We see something we like in someone and develop an entire character out of them. This song is really just that. A characterization of what I hope manifests in my life. It has put me directly on a new path and I am so happy.
There is a Bangla song called Jodi Tor Dak Shune keu Na Ashe. The words say if no one comes after hearing your call, then don't be afraid to travel the path on your own. Guess what? I have a lot of support now, but I will travel to the ends of the Earth to find myself. I will not lose my voice ever again. I can't wait to make a real music video for this. It's coming.
Cheers to your growth and mine. Let's raise a glass to our collective evolution.